daylight
normally, i’m off to lala land by 2AM.
however, the splittering-splattering-dripping sounds plus the thunder and lightning brought by the rainy season have kept me up for some nights now.
thus, i am as disoriented and as dissociated as ever.
surprisingly, in my "almost always not really here" state of mind, my ears are as alert.
people who think that i am semi-autistic are not aware of that.
it’s funny how people start to concoct all these misconceptions when you don’t allow them behind your walls. i don’t entirely blame them. it takes two to tango.
so i’m listing some common assumptions about me.
and what’s really behind the walls…
u must be very insecure with ur siblings who are all gorgeous and are either jocks or doctors.
when i was growing up, till now, my mom would say that i look like my dad. my dad would say that i look like my mom. nobody would want to look like me. i am that hideous. if life is a beauty pageant, i will be very insecure. but it’s not. it’s a rat race. you don’t need to be a swan to win.
aren’t you a bit too old to still be too bratty?
i’m trying to grow up. believe me. actually, i think i’ve matured a bit. otherwise, you won’t be standing there now, still alive, after asking that question to my face.
ur a slacker, a crammer with an attitude problem when it comes to work. but u managed to get far. u don’t deserve what ur getting.
but i get the job done. i’m more results oriented, than process oriented. it just seems like that because i work hard, but play harder. and i am very blessed.
ur too anti-conformist. not entirely. i love popular culture. been into meteor garden, ukay ukay and the like. what i do is take some items from pop culture then give it a twist. by the way, i’m getting the new album of the backstreet boys.
u managed to be around the powers that be–at work, in school, in any organization that u get urself in. ur a social climber. i haven’t thought about that. i guess i’m always at the right place at the right time. by the way, tim yap said he is a social climber, so did boy abunda. so i guess i am too.
u choose the guys that can come close to you. from observation, we surmise that you only allow those who drive SUVs to be your friends. because guys who drive sedans are the ones who broke my heart.
u used to be really fat before. now ur payat. how did you lose weight? uv become a druggie no? i wonder if ur really seeing me when u say that. i get surprised at how big my clothes are. and my tummy is big, like pare–when i buy jeans, some saleslady would ask me if i am pregnant because my size is huge. but i’ve really just come to accept my body, no matter the size.
ur too ambitious. what are ur plans? finish my master’s program then get back to work. and then take my doctorate, keep myself busy till husband comes along. then i’ll be a full time wife to him and mom to our kids. i totally love kids. and this ultra baduy as in "mustard shirt baduy" guy in school.
ur narcissitic to come up with a question and answer like this. no. i’m just bored. and tired of being misunderstood
